I’m a Tree; She’s a Bird

I'm a tree; She's a bird - motherhood

"I feel scared about facing this week," I said to my husband yesterday. That sounds rather pathetic, especially when I write it down like that.  But it's true! I have this fear, anxiety you might call it.  Matt is away, which isn't unusual, but I am feeling so weary at the end of this school term. The kids are weary too, so right now, it's like the wheels are coming out from underneath me and ahead I picture myself with gravel rash on … [Read more...]

Keep on Keeping on: Health and Fitness (week 1)

before and after weight loss

Keep on Keeping on: Health and Fitness It isn't a great heading for this post and I know it.  There's a lot of noise about weight loss around these days, and much of it is sensationalised.  If I really wanted to get good click throughs to what I've written here, I probably should have titled it something like: How I Turned from a Frumpy Mummy into a Yummy Mummy or The Secret to My Weight Loss or 5 Tips to Lose … [Read more...]

The Small Blessings That Speak Truth

the little things that count

I wish I thought to take a picture of all the rubbish that came home in my children's bags on the last day of school. It was epic!  Think this picture below times at least 100.  This is just the remnants; the stuff that was salvageable. School is finished and I managed to get through the last couple of weeks.  I didn't get through gracefully, but the dreaded weeks are behind me.  When there are rough patches in family life, I often feel alone. … [Read more...]

A Special Mother-Moment

After a hard week, it takes just one special moment to reinforce what a privilege it is to be a mother. You know those moment that take your breath away? Let me back track a little. My two older girls started training in Rhee Tae Kwon Do before I did. After watching for a few lessons, I wondered why I wasn't doing it with them. Rhee Tae Kwon Do is a wonderful family sport so I thought it might be a fun thing for us to do together. I asked the … [Read more...]

A Squeaky Wheel

REEEK, REEEK, REEEK, REEEK. Jolly pram. REEEK, REEEK, REEEK, REEEK. My feet hit the ground, falling in rhythm with the repetive screech of the pram wheel as I walked the short path to pick up my school children. I walked fast, as I like to do. Just up ahead, I saw a small grandma with a neat white bob, strolling beside a happy looking girl wearing red and white check pants. If I wasn't on such a get-to-school-and-back mission, I might … [Read more...]

I Don’t Want to Give My Kids Advice

wisdom not advice

 I don't want to give my kids advice, I want to impart wisdom. Advice:  a proposal for an appropriate course of action Wisdom: ability to apply knowledge or experience or understanding or common sense and insight Many will give my children's advice as they mature -- doctors, dentists, teachers, friends, colleagues -- but as a mother, I want to be different because I know and love them unconditionally. I want to offer my children something … [Read more...]

Mothering Motherless

mothering_motherless

{My mother with her grandchildren. This picture captures her essence.} She died 5 years ago, my mother. Too young to die at 51. They say time heals the pain. In many ways this is true: the knife pain in my heart is now an ache that never quite goes away. The pain is not as sharp but it runs deeper than it did before. I'm a motherless mother. I often think I would be a better mother if she was here to encourage me. To be with me. There's grief … [Read more...]

On Being Fallible & Giving My Kids the Chance to Shine

Allowing Kids to Shine

I have realised I don't have to be everything to my kids in order for them to thrive. Actually, trying to be everything can do quite the opposite, I believe. In my many, many moments of weakness, I see how capable my children are. I absolutely adore this picture of my amazing kids shining. When I'm sick... From a curled up position on the couch, the house still ticks away. Sure, not as efficiently or as well as I may like, but things … [Read more...]

Parenting: Trusting My Gut

{How high is too high? How much freedom is too much?} I recently read a post from the lovely Megan from Writing Out Loud about Parenting Against Instinct. In the post, Megan talks about how she often holds herself back when her daughter, for example, is climbing the ladder to a slide. This is something I often do also, but I wouldn't call it parenting against my instinct (or I'll use the words gut and intuition which I think in this instance, … [Read more...]

Sacrifices

motherhood sacrifices

I remember when my fourth child was born. A big beautiful baby boy. That's a lot of b's. After he was born, a lot of people congratulated me on (finally) managing to have a boy after 3 girls. But I wasn't hoping for a boy. And I wasn't hoping for a girl either. I was excited about welcoming a new person to our family, and if it was another girl, I would have been just as thrilled! I couldn't wait for my three girls to meet their brother. Here … [Read more...]

The Transition to Motherhood

transition to motherhood

Many people have misconceptions about me.  They see me with my four children (6 years between them) and think I'm some sort of Earth Mother. In truth, I found the transition from full-time work to stay-at-home-mother (SAHM), well, basically a shock. I've written this list with a little jest, but honestly.   I know many women take to Motherhood gracefully and smoothly (I'm jealous).  But for me, it was a struggle.  Over time, I've settled into … [Read more...]