Clarity Amongst the Chaos

I was driving the car.  The chatter from the children in the back was boisterous as usual. It’s pretty much always loud in our car. The scene was not at all like the picture below, taken a few years ago.  I put this picture here because it’s cute, and one of the only times all my kids were asleep at the same time in the car.

kids asleep in car

Anyway, so the kids were not asleep, but rather talking amongst themselves.

“I’m into China, and dragons; that’s my thing.” The eldest said.

“I love birds.” Daughter number 2 followed on.

“I like unicorns, and fairies, and princesses.”  My youngest daughter piped up in a sing-song voice.

Number 2 daughter — she’s the motherly one — said to her brother. “Son, you like transformers, don’t you?”

I didn’t see him nod, but the silence, the lack of protest, indicated such a gesture.

Four voices began to overlap as the chatter continued.

Then, I heard my youngest daughter speak a little louder, straining to be heard above the voices. “Kids. Kids!”

Once she had their attention, she spoke; it was a statement rather than a question: “You know what mum likes: she likes to look at the world.”

She likes to look at the world.

There it is, right there.

That slice of clarity amongst the chaos.

The ray of sunshine through the clouds.

A hint of hope through the anxiety.

It’s been a tough month, and I spent the time being cranky, rousey and introspective; consumed with my own worries rather than looking for the beauty around me. Looking around. Looking out. Looking up.

My daughter served as a reminder of who I am, who I want to be, who I can be. I needed that. Despite the failures of this last month, the positive moments invested are still there, and they came back to me in that one line.

Later, my eldest daughter asked me: “What are some things you like Mum?”

I said, “Well, I do love tea cups, old books and shoes, definitely shoes, but I think what Jim-Girl said is the best: I like to look at the world and see all the beauty in it.”

A few words from a small one: they did me good.

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Kelly loves life at both ends of the spectrum: wearing high heel shoes one day and hiking boots the next; sipping tea out of a pretty cup and slurping hot coffee from a camping mug; challenging herself physically and stopping for quiet unhurried moments to feel the wind on her face. Kelly and her husband Matthew seek to live a fun and adventurous life with their four children and pet bird.

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  1. says

    What an amazingly insightful little person you have there. This month is nearly over. I hope the next one allows you to have a little more time to look at the world & to enjoy what you see x

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